“If you don’t risk anything, you risk even more.” ~ Erica Jong Regret is a powerful feeling. Just finished watching Benjamin Button. I wish I could have a love like that. I desire a love like that. I’m kinda sad because the person I thought could be my love was not. I idealized her in my head way too much. In the end I forgot that I’ve gotta improve myself and develop my own life.

When you grow up you tend to get told that the world is the way it is and your life is just to live your life inside the world-try not to bash into the walls too much, try to have a nice family life, have fun, save a little money. But life-that’s a very limited life. Life can be much broader once you discover one simple fact. And that is everything around you that you call life was made up by people that were no smarter than you. And you can change it-you can influence it, you can build your own things that other people can use. — Steve Jobs

I look back to my old Facebook profile pics. Makes me think. How many people are still around? How many real ones stayed with me? Have I pushed people away? I don’t know if Johnny was right. It’s shallow but I want to go back to being thin because people treated me differently. Even looking at it now some girls wanted me and did nice things for me just because I looked good. Do I drink the cool-aid?

Okay. I have an experience that kinda fits in line with Cal Newport’s Passion Hypothesis. Before I started working, I experienced anxiety and an existential vacuum. As Viktor Frankl advised, I volunteered to be the Improv capo for the alumni group. Hey I’m not working might as well do so…

Investing is not gambling, nor is it speculation. There’s the Ben Graham definition of investing: an operation in securities to get a reasonable rate of return safety of capital definite selling point Tim Ferriss, a fave author of mine would define investing as: “I subjectively define it as allocating resources to improve my quality of life.”

If you do the rule of 72 for a 20% increase, you get an amazing result. Your initial will DOUBLE every 3.6 years.

I’m trying to be optimistic, but also a realist. The reality is that my circadian rhythm is messed up. I don’t have the exact data as I used to have logged. But I know that my rhythm is messed up when I’m waking up at 3pm on a tuesday. I need a saner schedule.

Blogging for some recreation Today I woke up at 3pm. Last night I had a McDonalds meal for Php 500, 3 burgers, 3 apple pies. Watched Dirty Grandpa for the 3rd or 4th time, understood the Florida reference. Proactive, was what my aunt told me to be. I fear the…

There’s a difference between recreation and entertainment as John Templeton explains in Laws of Life. And this is true. Youtube, Netflix, they consume your attention, while when you recreate, like writing, walking, or doing something with a creative element, you put out energy.