I will create for myself a muse. I will be conscious of spending. I will buy my freedom. I will be able, for example, to drive to pampanga on a whim, to see the girl I want to see, while having income streams that require less than 1 days of management. I am the driver of my life. I am the captain of my ship. I am the master of my soul.

I think one thing I must be wary of as I continue to work for companies is to guard against the mindset that I am an employee. no. I am a business. I learned this from Kevin Gabayan. Too many years as an employee will make you set in your ways, he told me once. Once you strike it out on your own, you need no one’s permission.

Man I don’t know what I’m doing. Looking at my sleep logs my circadian rhythm is in terrible shape. When you’re thrusted out of routine, the smallest decisions become large monsters. Need to get into a better feedback loop. I’m hoping the girl I dated at the start of the year will see the improved me and think ‘’oh man i shouldve given him the light of day’’

“If you don’t risk anything, you risk even more.” ~ Erica Jong Regret is a powerful feeling. Just finished watching Benjamin Button. I wish I could have a love like that. I desire a love like that. I’m kinda sad because the person I thought could be my love was not. I idealized her in my head way too much. In the end I forgot that I’ve gotta improve myself and develop my own life.

When you grow up you tend to get told that the world is the way it is and your life is just to live your life inside the world-try not to bash into the walls too much, try to have a nice family life, have fun, save a little money. But life-that’s a very limited life. Life can be much broader once you discover one simple fact. And that is everything around you that you call life was made up by people that were no smarter than you. And you can change it-you can influence it, you can build your own things that other people can use. — Steve Jobs

I look back to my old Facebook profile pics. Makes me think. How many people are still around? How many real ones stayed with me? Have I pushed people away? I don’t know if Johnny was right. It’s shallow but I want to go back to being thin because people treated me differently. Even looking at it now some girls wanted me and did nice things for me just because I looked good. Do I drink the cool-aid?

Okay. I have an experience that kinda fits in line with Cal Newport’s Passion Hypothesis. Before I started working, I experienced anxiety and an existential vacuum. As Viktor Frankl advised, I volunteered to be the Improv capo for the alumni group. Hey I’m not working might as well do so…

Investing is not gambling, nor is it speculation. There’s the Ben Graham definition of investing: an operation in securities to get a reasonable rate of return safety of capital definite selling point Tim Ferriss, a fave author of mine would define investing as: “I subjectively define it as allocating resources to improve my quality of life.”

If you do the rule of 72 for a 20% increase, you get an amazing result. Your initial will DOUBLE every 3.6 years.