How many real ones?

I look back to my old Facebook profile pics. Makes me think. How many people are still around? How many real ones stayed with me? Have I pushed people away?

I don’t know if Johnny was right. It’s shallow but I want to go back to being thin because people treated me differently. Even looking at it now some girls wanted me and did nice things for me just because I looked good. Do I drink the cool-aid?

Honestly I don’t know if that’s the best reason for getting thin. At least it’s a reason. And at least there’s a payoff. I want to look good for the girls man. Johnny would never understand what it’s like to be fat and unwanted. He was never borderline obese.